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Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength?
I believe crying resembles your emotions in a physical action. I see it as a sign of strength, healing yourself of hurt, or of pain you feel. It soothes the broken feelings of your soul. I believe it takes strength to realize your pain, and to let yourself heal, over coming a struggle in your life. Weakness is when you cannot face that struggle, and lie to yourself that you’re fine.
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Five.
When was the last time you tried something new?
Saturday afternoon I went out with a close friend and tried sushi for the first time. I can’t say if I like it or not, because I was really hesitant to eat a lot, but its definitely something I’m going to try again.
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Four.
Are you holding onto something that you need to let go of?
I’m holding onto my past. I’m sure I am not the only one who wishes they could change their past. Over the years I’ve found darkness in my childhood that haunts me. I blame my parents who the faults I see in myself, and the boys I thought I trusted hurt me in ways unimaginable. But today is the day I let go of this pain that follows me. I’m going to see my faults as strengths, for I cannot change the way I was raised. I’m going to look at the lies I was told, and use it to be more careful of what I believe. Finally, the physical pain I was caused without consent, help me value my body, to show me that not everyone is bad, and not everyone will hurt me.
Today is the day, I start living for me.
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Three.
Who do you love? What are you doing about it?
I could give the generic answer and tell you I love my friends and family, but of course that is an easy answer for the obvious. There are 4 people in my life who are very close to my heart, and without them I’d be a different person.
This is for them.
Love 1.You are the caregiver and soul provider in my life. You’ve been there for everything. I value and appreciate everything you have done for me, even more now that I am older and can experience for myself what you’ve gone through and what it takes. Though you are one, you are strong. Stronger than most individuals I know. I’m sorry it hasn’t been easy for you in the last couple years, but I promise I’ll always love you, and be there for you like you have been there for me. I’m going to make sure that I try and either show you or tell you how much I love you, and how much I appreciate everything you do for me and others in this world. You deserve the best in this life.Love 2.Though we met not to long ago, I’ve loved you the minute we’ve met. Without you realizing, you’ve changed my world. For years I have suffered in an illness, that at times I felt suffocated me, and I couldn’t move forward, but you’ve shown me beauty. You present passion in what you do, determination in your goals, love for the people in your life, the appreciation of the small and simple things, and the idea of what it means to live life to its fullest. Thank you for being my rock.. I can rely on you now to be there for me, and to inspire me. You make me want to do better, and be better each day. I hope I can always be in your life. You are my dream, and I truly love you. If you let me, I will spend the rest of my life making sure you’re as happy, as you have made me.Love 3.Nothing can keep us apart. Whether it be an hour car ride, or a 5 hour plane ride. I know at the end of the day if I ever needed someone I can go to you. You know my darkest secrets and my hidden fears. You understand that I have my days where I need to be alone, but on the days I don’t, I can count on you to be there. You are an amazing girl, with fire in her soul. I admire your care free life, and your eye for beauty. I can say with confidence you are my soul mate. We will always be best friends, I couldn’t imagine a life without you. I promise from 80 years from now, that I’m going to always make sure there is not a day that goes by without us talking, and sharing a smile.Love 4.You’re stories of your past, enlighten my future. Your wisdom, expands my knowledge, and renders my values. I value you as my own father, for you are a man who I know will always love me, through my weaknesses and my strengths. Our relationship has just become stronger within the last view years, and everyday I take a moment to think about how much I appreciate our bond. I know if we didn’t have it, and years from now you are gone, I would regret ever not getting to know you. You are a man who keeps me on my toes, and helps me realize how important I really am. You’ve inspired my star, and forever I will love you, and spend the time we have together showing you how much I appreciate what we have. -
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Is it out of reach? Or have you just not stretched yourself far enough?
I want to be different than I am today; a stronger person who has over come an illness that defeats many, with some victors in the end. This goal is not out of reach, its simply the matter of waking up each day and believing that I have the strength to conquer anything that comes before me. I need to make myself imagine the possibilities and what its going to take to win my battle. Each day I celebrate that I’ve made it through, hoping for the same success for the next. I’m learning to appreciate today for what it is, and worrying about tomorrow when it gets here.
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Look At The Stars, Look How They Shine For You.
This blog is not about what I’m going to tell you and what you’ll learn about me, it’s not about our current pop culture for you to casually browse through and waste your time, it’s about what I’m going to learn about myself.
I could start this blog off by telling you who I am, my likes and dislikes, aspirations that I have, the bands I enjoy listening too, but I already know all of that, and its pointless information for someone who doesn’t know me.
What I will say though is this blog is based upon a star, the idea that being alive gives 7 billion people in this world the endless possibilities to achieve their dreams, that the shape of the star embodies the uniqueness of each individual on this planet, because like each star in the sky, no star is the same nor are people the same.
I believe in the beauty of humanity, the hidden secrets of the world, and the power of love. I believe that every individual has a story that contributes to this life that makes it what it is. So with this blog, this is my life that I am sharing with the world, contributing bits and pieces of information that makes you understand a person, not like the ‘about me’ section on facebook. This is personal. This is me.
“If we all understood that everyone has their own battles to fight, insecurities to face, loves to contend, and goals to attain, the world would be a gentler place”. - Unknown
